Changes

I quit my job yesterday. It was actually a lot more difficult than I expected it to be. I’ve been with my company (well, former company, I guess) for over eight years. I think it’s a fabulous company to work for, and I worked with some pretty wonderful people. I sobbed quite a bit after I hung up the phone with my boss yesterday, which caught me by surprise. I was so sure that I was making the right decision that I didn’t expect any tears. I’m going to truly miss a lot of my coworkers, and I took a lot of pride in working for the company, so I probably should have anticipated some mixed emotions.

I have known for a while that I would most likely be quitting, but I needed to give it more time to make sure it was the right choice. There are multiple reasons I decided to leave. The first part is my continued inability to concentrate. I just don’t have the ability to focus the way I know is necessary to do my job. I also know that I am far too fragile at this point to handle it. I knew that the first time (and possibly the first 70 times) someone argued with me, was pushy with me, or attempted to throw me under the bus, I’d be a puddle of tears. The third reason is I’m not willing to travel if I get pregnant again, which would make me unable to complete my job requirements. I also would probably quit immediately upon getting pregnant, and I’m hoping that will happen sooner rather than later, so I decided to just quit now.

There’s one other reason: it’s not what I want to do with my life. As much as I loved the company and the people I worked with, my career path wasn’t right for me. It wasn’t my dream, and when Jillian died, I realized that life is too short and too precious to do something that doesn’t bring happiness into my life. I’ve been a hobbyist chocolatier, and that’s what I want to do. I’ve decided to focus on creating a chocolate business.

It’s definitely risky, but if I don’t try it, I’m going to always wonder if I could have done it. There’s a part of me that worries about starting this and then getting pregnant, because even if I’m not on bed rest, being on my feet for hours at a time doesn’t seem like the best idea, but I’m just going to take it one day at a time and cross that bridge when I come to it. If I wait until after we’re finished having kids, I’ll probably be too busy with the kids, plus I think holding off because I want to get pregnant is just going to put more stress and pressure on me.

So, as of today, I have my dream job. I’m a chocolatier. Also, if anyone needs chocolates for weddings, parties, gifts, etc., you know where to find me. That will be the last shameless plug you’ll see here – promise.

20 thoughts on “Changes

  1. Megan,
    I have been following your blog for a few months now. I found you through Betsy (she and I have connected through our blogs) and through The Bump. I think you have made an incredibly bold, courageous, and strong move. How fun!!! A life of chocolate. YUM!! May God bless you as you make this journey.

    Blessings,
    Meredith

  2. Good for you! I can’t imagine how hard/scary it is to quit a job and start up your own company! I have a feeling you are going to do awesome!!

  3. Yay!!! I am so happy for you and can not wait to tell everyone I know about your new venture. And I’m always available to sample your new products 🙂 Love you!!

  4. Congrats on pursuing one of your dreams! I hope your chocolate business is a big success! Do you have a facebook fanpage? If you do, I will suggest it to all my friends. Just wondering!

  5. Good for you for following your dream. And shamelessly plug away.. it’s YOUR business! I wish you so much success with your chocolatier-ing 🙂 And hugs to you for making the phone call. That had to be hard.

  6. Wonderful!!! Following your dream is never the wrong step! Good for you! I also know how hard quitting your job must have been. Hugs to you.

  7. Megan! I have tears in my eyes after reading this post. I think you made a great decision. I am so happy that you’re going to focus on what really makes YOU happy. I think what brought the tears to my eyes was seeing the “Sweet Jillian Chocolates” at the bottom. I know she is SO proud of you. Congratulations on taking such a bold step. 🙂

  8. Thanks, everyone. I am so nervous but so excited. I don’t have a webpage or Facebook page yet, but I hope to get those set up pretty soon.

  9. I’m so proud of you! I love you so very much and can’t wait to order some chocolates.
    For myself. For no real reason. And to hide from Jacob.

  10. Megan, I think that is a fabulous idea….being your own boss is wonderful….I know this from experience…and your chocolate candy is amazing!!! Good Luck and please send samples!!!

  11. Fantastic! I am so happy for you! It takes strength to follow your dreams like that. What fantastic news!

    And yeah, plug away! Your loyal readers want to hear all about your venture!

  12. Hi honey! What a fabulous decision and I am happy you are following your dream! Let me know if you need any help. I will definitely be marketing for you down here in Philly! Love the name too. Xoxo

  13. So are you in business yet? Because I have a friend getting married and I would love to pass your info on to her. If you want you can email me at the address I left above.

  14. I think you are going the right direction for your life right now. Following your heart and passion will always lead to success. xoxo All my love.

  15. I’m so proud of you for following your dream. And, yes, life is too short (I realized this after my grandma’s passing) to not follow your heart. Congrats on the new venture, I wish we lived closer b/c my family is ALWAYS having parties & chocolate is a must!

  16. I love the idea! Good for you! The years are Waldameer in the Fudge Shop will certainly come in handy! I’m glad you are going to be doing something that will fulfill you.

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