A picture of Jillian

Only a few people have seen this picture. I have been very hesitant to let anyone see it, and not just on the internet. Almost six months after she was born, I’m finally ready to share it with the world (I think). I’m still pretty apprehensive to post it, but at the same time, I want everyone to see how beautiful and perfect she was.

Only one stranger has seen this photo. It was a little girl sitting next to me on a plane last month. It’s the background on my computer, and when I turned it on, she asked if the baby was mine, and then asked if she was a boy or girl. Her questioning terrified me, because I was so afraid she would ask what the tubes were for, or why she was so tiny, or why she wasn’t with me. She was an unaccompanied minor, so there was no parent there to guide me with my answers. How would explain to total stranger, a young child, why my daughter is no longer with me? When I told her that Jillian was a girl, she just said, “she’s pretty” and went back to whatever she was doing as I sat there trying not to start bawling. It’s one of those moments that I’ll remember for the rest of my life. That little girl gave me the courage to share this picture here.

42 thoughts on “A picture of Jillian

  1. Absolutely beautiful! Thank you for sharing the picture, that was very brave of you. Also the story about the little girl is amazing. Most kids would have asked a million questions. I think Jillian had something to do with how composed and polite that kid was. Like Jillian was watching over that conversation to help give you strength.

  2. She’s absolutely beautiful. I’m so thankful you shared this wonderful girl with us. Her perfect little ear, that gorgeaus hair peaking out from under her cap. Thank you.

  3. Even though I have heard the story before, it gave me goosebumps reading it again. The little girl was so right, Jilly is beautiful. Just like her momma.

  4. Thank you for sharing such a precious picture and moment in your life. She is very pretty indeed. I love how children can put things into perspective for us without even realizing that they’re doing it.

  5. Love in it’s purest form…Your Jillian is beautiful, and she will never be forgotten. I don’t know if you are religious but I will share with you a verse that I find holds me together when times get rough and I think of my angel. “The righteous perish, and no one ponders it in his heart; devout men are taken away, and no one understands that the righteous are taken away to be spared from evil.” Isaiah 57:1

    Thank you so much for sharing her picture with the world.

  6. That little girl was absolutely right, she is beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing.

  7. You’re right.. she IS perfect and beautiful. Thank you for having so much courage to share her with us. I’m still working up the courage to post more of Parker’s photos.

  8. It goes without saying that your daughter is incredibly beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing such an intimate, profound picture of you and your daughter with us.

  9. My eyes sprung with tears. So, so beautiful. I didn’t even really notice the tubes and stuff, I was too busy just looking at her sweet face and how peaceful she looks cuddled up against momma. Thank you for having the courage to share this photo and moment with us. I feel privileged for having seen it.

    Love you. xoxoxoxoxo

  10. a perfect mother/daughter moment captured. this is the most touching picture i have ever seen

  11. She’s beautiful, Megan. Truly beautiful. Thank you for sharing sweet Jillian with us all!

  12. So peaceful and perfect. I just want to kiss her sweet ear and whisper how much she is loved.

  13. Thank you for having the courage to share. She is just as you said…beautiful and perfect.

  14. She is beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing the picture of your amazing daughter. The love it captured is overwhelming.

  15. Megan, she is SOO beautiful. I’m sitting in the airport in phoenix crying and probably looking like an idiot right now after reading this post. 🙂 She looks so precious, I love her little nose and ear. It looks like she has a lot of hair under that hat!

  16. Megan, she’s absolutely beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing this picture! (((hugs)))

  17. I know you don’t know me, but your story has touched my heart.
    I didn’t notice the tubes. All I noticed was the abundance of love shining from that picture.
    Thank you so much for having the strength to share this.

  18. What a beautiful picture, and what a beautiful baby girl! Thank you for sharing Jillian with us.
    You are in my heart.

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