Jillian’s blanket and other things

A box was delivered to my hospital room right around the time we found out about Jillian’s brain hemorrhage. I didn’t open it because we were obviously focused on other things, but right before we left the room to begin saying goodbye, I noticed the word “blanket” on the box. I had been upset because I hadn’t finished the blanket I’d been knitting for Jillian, but I wanted to be able to use a special blanket while we were holding her, so I tore into the box. Inside was a gift basket with a pink blanket, a small photo album, a frame, and a kit with plaster to take a baby’s hand and footprints. The timing and the items were perfect.

I found the card and discovered it had been sent by a group of friends from the internet. I’ve never met any of these amazing women, except for one (and that didn’t happen until I was in the hospital), but they have been so supportive to us since everything happened (and before then, but the support since then has been overwhelming and amazing). I will forever be incredibly thankful for the support they’ve provided, as well as the gift they sent. The blanket they sent, which we used with Jillian, is now a fixture on our bed, and the hand and foot print kit allowed us to create what is now the most treasured object we’ll ever possess.

Jillian’s hand and foot prints:

Jillian’s foot prints are about 1.75 inches long. They are miniature versions of mine, which is amazing to me. Our feet are identical, and it’s hard to see in this picture, but our pinkies are bent in the exact same way.

I finished Jillian’s knit blanket today. It’s not perfect, but I’m okay with that. I guess I realize how how unimportant that is. It hurts my heart to think about how many times I imagined wrapping Jillian in it before we came home from the hospital. I hope we’ll be able to give it to our next baby before too long.

15 thoughts on “Jillian’s blanket and other things

  1. The hand and foot prints are perfect, just like the blanket. I love that Jilly's little brother or sister will one day get to use the blanket.

  2. Jillian's blanket is lovely. You did a great job, and it will be wonderful when you are able to have that as a connection between Jillian and her younger siblings. I admit I teared up a bit looking at her hand and footprints. They are so perfect and tiny. My pinky fingers bend that way, too.

  3. Jillian's blanket is beautiful!

    I agree with MissyMae, Jillian's hand and footprints are perfect, absolutely beautiful. Thank you so much for sharing.

  4. I am crying just looking at the hand and foot prints. How beautiful. The blanket is beautiful and will be wrapped around a baby before too long, love. xoxo

  5. I've been reading since you started this blog but haven't commented yet. My heart has broken for you more than once…I've cried so many tears at the loss of your beautiful baby girl…I've prayed that your pain will heal quickyly.

    The gifts that you received were heaven sent and the plate is priceless. So precious. I will continue to pray for you and your family.

  6. Hugs to you Megan.. I know how special those images of hands and feet are. We didn't have a chance to get a casting of Parker's, but his nurses did do ink feet and hand prints.. and I so treasure that piece of paper. I can also identify with what you said the other day.. waking up and still feeling pregnant, even for just a split second. *sigh* We should get to do things over and have them turn out differently.


  7. The blanket picture took my breath away. I recognized the pattern immediately. This is the same pattern my sister was knitting three years ago, for my soon-to-be-born son. He died before she finished. She couldn't pick up her needles for over a year after. She finished the blanket finally when my younger son was born. That was her present to him. She also made a miniature version of the same pattern, from the same thread, to put into A's memory box. That was her present to me. My boys' blankets are in shades of green.

    The prints are gorgeous. I am so glad they came out so well. A's hand prints didn't work, but I too treasure his little footprints.

  8. The blanket is beautiful, just like her little hands and feet. I'm so glad you have these tangible things of hers. *hugs*

  9. Julia, your comment took MY breath away.

    I ordered more of the yarn I used to make something else. I don't know what I'm going to make, though. I thought of a smaller blanket to put in Jillian's memory box, but I'm not sure, though.

  10. The blanket is beautiful! her hands and feet are SO tiny! They are perfect and beautiful though!!

  11. Hi, I came across your blog. I just wanted to let you know that I do baby hand and footprints in porcelain clay. I’ve been doing this for 13 years; I am a professional ceramist/teacher. I’m writing because I can take this mold you have and make ceramic plaques for you from this-either with the print going in or out. I actually use the same material the nurses used to do her prints-I use it as a mold, then I sculpt 3D casts from the mold-I do not harm the mold in any way-and then I use the casts to make ceramic pieces from them. If you are interested in my services, contact me at 949)257-9176.
    I know you love your prints, I just can make them better, and in a medium that will literally last forever.

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