There is a wonderful organization called Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep that provides free photography to families who are experiencing the loss of a baby. A wonderful photographer came to the hospital the night that Jillian passed, and took pictures of us as a family as we prepared to say goodbye to her.
Dave and I don’t plan to share most of these photographs with anyone. We do have this picture framed and on display in our home, so I’m comfortable sharing it here. In this picture, Jillian is on my chest. I can’t help but smile when I think of this moment. She was so warm and snuggly and clearly very comfortable. Even with all the moments of doubt I’ve had about her knowing who I was, remembering the time I spent holding her makes it obvious that she knew exactly who I was.