A picture of Jillian

There is a wonderful organization called Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep that provides free photography to families who are experiencing the loss of a baby. A wonderful photographer came to the hospital the night that Jillian passed, and took pictures of us as a family as we prepared to say goodbye to her.

Dave and I don’t plan to share most of these photographs with anyone. We do have this picture framed and on display in our home, so I’m comfortable sharing it here. In this picture, Jillian is on my chest. I can’t help but smile when I think of this moment. She was so warm and snuggly and clearly very comfortable. Even with all the moments of doubt I’ve had about her knowing who I was, remembering the time I spent holding her makes it obvious that she knew exactly who I was.

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13 thoughts on “A picture of Jillian

  1. That is absolutely beautiful. I wish I had known about them when Katie was born.
    Thank you for sharing it.

  2. I think the lady there thought I was crazy when I called her. And called her again. And again. I suppose she's used to it. She was wonderful to talk to, I don't know if she is who came, but she was very nice. I am really glad someone was able to take photos for you and that you are able to keep that memory.

    (It is entirely possible that the hospital would have arranged this anyway without me badgering the photographer)

  3. Rachel, our hospital took care of all of that, thankfully. They were actually the first ones to tell us about NILMDTS.

  4. It's a beautiful and touching photo. I'm so glad you have visual representations of the moments you shared with Jilly.

  5. Oh, honey. It took my breath away. It is so peaceful and loving. How beautiful. I'm so glad you have this feeling to cherish. xoxoxo Thank you for sharing it with us.

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