20 Weeks

This has been a good week, pregnancy wise. I was terrified over the weekend about issues arising, to the point where I barely got out of bed on Sunday. Fortunately, my ultrasound on Monday showed my cervix is still over 3.5cm and holding up. I seem to be in this cycle of feeling confident immediately after an ultrasound, then having that confidence wane as time passes until the next one. I have another appointment at the end of next week, and I’m going to talk to my doctor about doing more frequent ultrasounds for the next several weeks. I’ll even take more frequent ones for just four or five weeks. I feel like I’ve entered the scariest phase for me, and two weeks between ultrasounds feels like an eternity that I’m not mentally able to handle.

I guess I’m technically at the halfway point, even though I won’t go past 39 weeks. Aside from that, I have a hard time wrapping my head around this being possibly being the halfway point. At this point with Jillian, I was unknowingly exactly one month and one day from having her. Hopefully with this one, I have at least 17 weeks left, instead of something drastically shorter. I can’t imagine making it to things like my glucose tolerance test or, heck, even the third trimester. I’m still not really able to imagine those things. I think I need to make it past 24 weeks before I can start thinking about it.

I couldn’t sleep last night for some unknown reason, which turned out to have some benefits. I went from only feeling sporadic, light kicks from the baby to feeling full-on, almost constant activity. Now that I’m thinking about it, it was probably my excitement that kept me awake. His kicks were strong enough that I could feel them from the outside with my hand, and I could even see them through the sheets. When Dave woke up about 5 hours later, I had him put his hand on my belly. He was skeptical and definitely more interested in going back to sleep, but then the little guy gave him a good whack. It’s one of those things that I didn’t think could possibly be as exciting the second time around, but it definitely is.

5 thoughts on “20 Weeks

  1. I am so happy for you. I know it must be so hard, but feeling those kicks is amazing. I hope that you get more frequent ultrasounds for peace of mind. It is so easy to fall into the pit of thinking that everything will go wrong.

    Thinking of you, Jillian and your new little one.

  2. I so relate to this post. I could not imagine making it to 24 weeks when I was 20 weeks. Then when my cervix started really shortening at 25 weeks I really cut back on what I was doing and now sit at almost 33 weeks with very little cervix 🙂 Your measurement is real good 🙂 You are doing great!

  3. I’m so happy for you! The next 17 weeks will FLY by, I’m sure! Just make sure he knows that we’re all excited to meet him, but not so excited that we can’t wait a few more months. 🙂

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