I just realized that I haven’t posted anything since Friday. I was wondering if it was a sign that I’m making progress, but when I thought about it, I realized it has nothing to do with progress and everything to do with Super Mario Galaxy. It’s pretty much the only thing I do anymore. I don’t really think when I play, so it’s a nice distraction. I’m sure I’ll get sick of it eventually (I’m almost finished with my second time through the game), but I do feel like I need to find something else to distract me when that time comes.

Tonight is our last session with our support group. I’m kind of a mess about it ending. I’ve become so attached to some of the people in the group, and it’s unsettling to know we’re not going to see them every week. We’ve already made plans to get together in two weeks, but it still doesn’t feel like the same safety net it has been. My grief counselor said that the people in these groups tend to stay in touch, but I’m still nervous about saying goodbye to everyone tonight. We spoke last week about how we don’t really know anything about each other’s regular lives, but we know all the details about the most personal, devastating things that have ever happened to all of us. I realized last week that I have come to love their children, even though I never met any of them, and I feel like they all love Jillian. I hate that these people know our heartbreak so well, but I’m glad that we all joined this support group.

8 thoughts on “Distraction

  1. I am so glad that you have found a group of people who can relate to you, and with whom you can relate – that makes all of the difference in the world. We didn't have a group that was for infant loss, and I wish we did – there's something so unique about it. I hope you all stay close!

  2. I'm so glad you had such a good experience with your support group. I have a feeling that even though you will not be having meetings in the traditional sense of the word, you guys will continue to be a wonderful support group for each other throughout the rest of your grieving process and hopefully into the coming years as you all begin having more children, etc.

    I'm also glad you've found something to distract you- I used to feel bad when I would realize that I hadn't been thinking about Olivia constantly anymore, but it's honestly nice to have a break sometimes, isn't it?

  3. I really hope your group finds a way to stay in touch. Big hugs. You, Dave and Jillian are in my thoughts and prayers every day. xoxo

  4. I went through a period where all I did was go to work, come home and watch Grey's Anatomy on DVD, and go to bed. Looking back, it was my escape. I needed to be able to turn my mind off. I think it's totally normal.

    I'm glad the support group has worked out for you–why is it ending? The support group at our local hospital meets once a month and it never ends.

  5. MSC, the group ends that quickly because there are new parents waiting for new groups to start.

  6. You'd be amazed at how easy it is to stay in touch with those in your support group. You may not see them as often as you like, but you will definately stay in touch. You share a commonality that many people can not relate to.

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